Conquering My Fears......

I had an interesting dream last night, I was on a camping trip with my students and colleagues. The dream began with us boarding a boat to go to a waterfal not far away from the camping area. As we arrived on the jetty I saw this tower and told myself I have to climb it. I was afraid of height which reflect reality. Anyway, I was overcome with this urge to climb despite my fear of height. The climb was not as difficult as I thought as I kept looking up. When I reached the top, I had to walk along this long narrow walkway into the tourism office located on top of the tower. Now, if you're afraid of height you must understand how I felt. I made my way through eventually. The office overlooked a very serene view. From above I saw my colleagues making their way up the hill to the waterfall. There were people white water rafting against the tide (weird!). The place was buzzing with different activities. I also bought 2 keychains. I woke up just as I was leaving the office to join the rest.

Nnw, it's very rare for me to remember my dreams exactly. Usually dreams are of familiar faces and very vague. So I looked up on the net for dream interpretation and this is what I found. By the looks of it, it's a pretty positive dream and are quite accurate to how I am at the moment :)

Stairs
To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicates that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual/emotional/material journey.

To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, signifies that you will face many setback in your endeavors.

To see spiral or winding stairs, signify growth and/or rebirth.

Tower
To see a tower in your dream, signifies high hopes and aspirations. If you are looking down from a tower, then it suggests your perceived superiority over others. Your ego may also be inflated.

To see a water tower in your dream, suggests that you are keeping your emotions inside. You may be unable to express your feelings, especially feelings of love. Alternatively, it indicates a false sense of security.

To dream that you are climbing a tower, denotes you quest for spirituality and unconscious ideas that may be surfacing.

Boat

To see a boat in your dream, signifies you ability to cope and express your emotions. Pay particular attention to the condition and state of the waters, whether is is calm or violent, clear or murky, etc. Are you "smooth sailing"? Alternatively, you may be ready to confront your unconscious and unknown aspects of yourself.

To dream that you are on a boat, denotes fruitful endeavors and that your plans will go off without a hitch. Luck will be right beside you.

To dream that you are trying to jump off a boat, suggests that you want to dive directly in and confront those difficult emotions and approach your problems head on.

Water
To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. If the water is calm, clear, then it signifies that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation. If you are splashed by water, then it represents your need to be revitalized and more expressive. To dream that water is boiling, suggests that you are expressing some emotional turmoil. It also may mean that feelings from your unconscious are surfacing and ready to be acknowledged.?

To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions.

To hear running water in your dream, denotes meditation, reflection and pondering of your thoughts and emotions.

To dream that you are walking on water, suggests that you have supreme and ultimate control over your emotions. It may also suggest that you need to "stay on top" of your emotions and not let them explode out of hand. Alternatively, it is symbolic of faith in yourself.

The Game We Are Playing......

A plane crashed near my house last night...in my dream. Heh heh! But this is not the first time, had similar dreams twice already so this will be the third time. And it gets more and more real. Humph! Could it be some sort of a sign? Like my life is crumbling down in front of me and I'm not sensing it? Could it be my downfall?? The end of my dreams and hopes, the end of me perhaps?? Heh! I don't wanna think much about it. I've already had enough things to occupy my mind. Which btw, reminds me that I've been having plenty of dreams lately. Some were good, some were bad, but its always the bad one that overshadows the good one no matter how good it was. The plane crash dream doesn't fall neither in good or bad category, they are just intangible!

I've been feeling void these past couple of days. There's so much on my mind that I can't think anymore. Why do we take the long winding path to achieve something? Is it for the excitement? Is it for the journey? Or is it just us human, to make ourselves feel alive?

I found this verse on one of the emails. I thought it'll be nice to share only the good part. Hehe!

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

Ayte, I'll leave you beautifuls with that.

I'm going with the flow.........