If Only I Know How.....

There's so much to see, in this world, the circus of humanity. Loyalty, deceits, truth, lies, pretends, denials, love and hate. All these don't matter as long as we are true to ourselves.

I'd drown if I try any harder.......

Through The Lens: Hockey Match Aust Guildford College vs. Brunei Ladies

Jobless Smelly Feets

The World We Live In

The World We Live In

In a world
Where we smoke to feel free
Where we drink to forget what we did
Where blaming others for our mistakes is the normality
And raping 9-year-old girls is the reality
We still manage to be happy.

In a world
Where if you have 1 you want 10
Where if you were born girl you want to be a man
Where moms slit their babies’ throats
And the real values are fading behind banknotes
We still consider ourselves humans.

In a world
Where if you were healthy you should be grateful
Where having a family should mean being lucky
Where dreaming should be consider as the biggest gift
And every breath should be enjoyed for what it gives
We shouldn’t be complaining,
but living.

J.Apo.B.

The poem was written by Jacopo, a blogger I recently became acquainted to. I very much like it because it's very raw and honest though some might percieve it as dark, it's time to come face to face with the real world now.

Jacopo's Inspiration:
Here I am, so....I wrote "The World We Live In" on a friday night here in San Francisco. It had been a long time that I had in mind the first 3 lines (In a world Where we smoke to feel free Where we drink to forget what we did) when on that friday I was randomly thinking, daydreaming, as often happens to me and I start thinking about our world, with all our beautiful and horrible things. Especially dreams, I'm a dreamer, therefore I consider dreaming "as the biggest gift". On the same day, my roommate was shooting his movie project about the people, the human being, and a couple of hours before I had watched an interview to Johnny Depp who talked about breathing, how we forgot how valuable breathing is. So, it was a mix, a set of thoughts lived in the same day that led me to write this poem.

PS/ Apo, I agree with the breathing part. More often we take things for granted. We are too obsess with the bigger picture that we forgot to look closer at each pieces of the puzzle.

The Enemy

"Because I had goodwill for all, I thought all were my friends, and then I learned of treachery, that some preferred my end. A glorious day, the one I learned the meaning of the word. It's good to know my enemies, though their reasons are absurd"

Vanna Bonta

She's With The Angels Now.......

If I have the chance to, I'd do it all over again. I apologize for my lapse of attention. Now that it's too late, I'll have to live with this regret forever. I'm so sorry......

All I have is your memories.......

Missing Aaqil.......

I miss Aaqil so damn much that it hurts. I know he's not my son but I love the little sleepyhead truly, madly, deeply. Hehe! Now, don't tell me to get married and have one of my own cos God forbid, I'm so not ready for all that. Nonetheless, I know I love Aaqil the moment I saw him. Who could resist loving his sweet adorable face. Does it make sense really that I can love him as my own but still not want to have one? I think it does.

Anyway, mum visited him this evening and he was sleeping as usual. I haven't seen him for 2 days and I'm definitely going tomorrow. No matter what.

He is a true blessing. A blessing to his parents, his aunts and uncles, his grandfathers and grandmothers as well as his great grandmothers. He's a lucky kid to be loved by so many. May he grow up to be a good faithful man. Amin.

The love beyond words........

The Apple of My Eye

I could stare at this peaceful face forever :)

The Perfect Reason

Less than a year ago, I had the opportunity to pack up and start new. I had all the reasons to go. All except one. Now that I've come face to face with it, he is worth staying.

Getting through the night.......

A Little Bite......

The good life taste real good.

I think I have my favourite......

Expect Nothing....

When we have expectations, everything else come as a disappointment.

We never learn, do we?

Life's A Struggle.....

"As we advanced in life it becomes more and more difficult, but in fighting the difficulties the inmost strength of the heart is developed"

The Thoughtful One......

I've been busy for the past few days, I apologised if I seemed to abandon this blog. I haven't been inspired. Not in a thoughtful way anyway. I have something to write about but I'm lazy. Maybe tomorrow or the day after.

Anyhow, the birth of my first nephew has to be one of the highlight of my life. I stayed at the hospital throughout the 12 hours long labour together with the rest of the family. On friday, 11th April 2008, Muhammad Aaqil Harith was born weighing 3.3kg and 52cm long. His birth changed my life, in a way. He's just so cute and adorable. I don't think he even mind the limelight, he's definitely enjoying his early moments of the world.

I've been thinking whether to start a new photoblog for the photos I took. I think it's a good idea to separate the pictures and my words/thoughts. I don't know, what do you think? My readers have been awfully quiet lately. Speak up yo!

Oh! My injury is not as bad as I predicted. Hehe! So Yay! I played hockey on thursday and saturday. Not even an ache. This is it for now.

Til I find my inspiration........

The New Joy...

Baby Aaqil, eleven hours old. Cuteness!

Born 11th April 2008

Baby Aaqil, one hour old :-)

Shining In The Darkness......

Take a look outside now, it is a very very beautiful night. The sky is clear and the mighty stars are shining. I don't remember seeing such a beautiful night as tonight.

Expecting more from tonight.......

Through The Lens: Sunset (8th)

Roy's Bday Dinner

It's Torn.....

Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong at the worst possible time. Yeap, I'm being Murphy-ed by the Murphy's Law. I picked up an injury, not a major one but not one that'll go away in few days neither. It comes at the perfect worst time. Just as I'm off to a good start.

Bring it on........

Someone's Universe, Definitely......

It is easy to think that the world revolves around you, but take a look around you, look up to the stars, see farther beyond the sea and you'll realise that it's never that way. In fact, the world could have survive without you. Could you have survive without them?

About time to be honest......

Quotomatic Machine: Submerged

"It is in our idleness, in our dreams, that the submerged truth sometimes comes to the top"

-Virgina Woolf

PS/ Sorry for the lack of posts. I feel so unispired.

Expectations Leads To Frustration....

You never learn your lesson do you? You can't help but to put high expectations of me. I'm not obliged to feed your every needs. I'm not obliged to anyone but myself.

Being nice isn't easy....

Through The Lens: Seven

It's all gonna be photos for today. Wuill try to post later if I'm inspired. Enjoy...

Third Kirana Wedding

Congratulations to Fets and Coach on their wedding. Dearest, my debt no more :)

Needing The Opposites...

I realised that everything I should be is everything I can't be. People have an idea of who I should be, but they failed to see that I'm only human. Is it just me or does everyone seem to have a different ideal of me? It's too much to handle especially when they think I've dissapoint them, those while I found myself in oblivion, unaware of all these expectations burdened on my shoulder. Can they just let me be myself, accept the way I am, my flaws included? Why are they so selfish when it comes to admitting their own mistakes?

Waiting for a fresh start.....