Truth Be Told......

We tried to enjoy peace by creating desolation. We tried to create peace by ignoring the truth. We create our own truth by abandoning reality.

Welcome To The Dark Side.....

I went out with couple of friends today, good old friends, for lunch. We ended up reminiscing about our younger days back in Manchester. How people grow, and how they change. We talked about the people we came across in life, the people who ended up as friends, some as the 'have been' and some who still play a significant part in our life.

Anyhow, the most interesting part of the afternoon conversation was when a friend blurted out that I 'drove people to their dark side' and was agreed by the other. Now! Please don't jump to any conclusion just yet. Although, I'm not dismissing the claim, I'm not evil either. My only arguement is that, I didn't force them or lure them to the 'dark side', I only woken up the sleeping demons inside of them. Besides, I didn't trap them into doing things they shouldn't do, sometimes even the things I never do myself. I didn't do it intentionally, seriously. Some of the things are bad, some are just wild and insanely fantastic. I'm not a very adventurous person myself and I can't explain how I just managed to do that.. So with the facts that has been discussed, yeah, I do drive people to their dark side. Oppsss! *_*

Starting enough trouble.......

Seeking Beyond.....

One of our common mistake is that we forgot that we are not the judge of our own effort. Our effort are justified by the outcome, not by how much it tires us. We need to remind ourselves that certain things are beyond our control and should just let it be.

Taking a slow turn.......

Farewell Dibs

Orang frust meninggalkan Brunei...whehehehe!!

Selfless Love

Have I mentioned that the Kite Runner is a powerful and moving book? It's a story of loyalty, selfless act of one and unappreciative, selfishness of another. It's about how a person can be overwhelmed by guilt that they inflicted pain on the exact person they felt guilty about. Isn't that ironic? Isn't that sad? It's also about forgiveness, kindness and redemption. I'm not rushing to finish the book because I don't want it to end. Nonetheless, I can't help myself to turn page after page. There's about a hundred pages to go.

"For you a thousand times over...." - Hassan in The Kite Runner

Conversation of the Week

"Awu yo, kamah tu yo, air kamih tikus g yo"

"Tikus bekamih kan yo?" (plastered with a bangang look)

Bimbo moment banar! Hahaha

Through The Lens: 4th Edition

Few pics taken during the family outing at Serasa Beach, 23th February 2008

Now, my two favourite pics.......

A Heartfelt Read

I'm not done reading yet hehe

New Game in Town....

Our new post work activity.

The Kite Runner

I just started reading The Kite Runner this evening and I don't want to put it away. It is so good though I'm only up to chapter six. Khaled Hosseini knows well how to mesmerize readers with his words. The story was carefully plotted and each chapter ends with sentence that makes my heart skipped a few bits. Hehe! I'm already attached to the character Hassan, the things he has to endure. Makes me sad to read what he has to go through in the story. I haven't read much so I can't review the book as a whole yet. Nor do I know will what happen to the characters. Though, there will be heartbreaking and painful moments to come. So far, it almost brought me to tears a couple of times. So Nur, go read it. Hehe

In my own world.......

Statement of The Week...

"Men are stupid, they don't know anything"

Anonymous (For her sake!...Hehe)

Along This Road....

I'm yet to read Jemima J. Maybe after The Kite Runner which I'm going to start on tonight. The one I've just finished is An Accident Waiting To Happen by Adrian White. The story took place in Manchester and the places were very familiar. In fact, I'm seriously UK@Manchester sick at the moment. I miss that place! SiGh!

I bumped into an old friend at the gym today. It was very exciting to see her. Her husband died a year ago in an accident. The death was unexpected and shocking. He was a very nice man. And to see my friend, it breaks my heart. Because I know she's still grieving. Although see looks alright, but you can sense that she's still broken and lost. She's still trying to move on in which I think she's progressing well. Slowly but well. I'm happy that she's moving on. I hope for her to find another decent man as she deserves to be happy. Al-Fatihah to Allahyarham Md Zulkarnain.

The only face you see........

Sensational Stick....

What do the S(es) look like to you? That's how cool my hockey stick is. I named her Miss G, short for Gentle Lunatic.

Through The Lens: Part Three

Just some random pics....

Who We Are....

Do we really know who we are? Our dreams and what we want to achieve in life? Can anyone be sure what they truly want in life?

When we stopped being who we are, we found our true self. It's when we have nothing to lose that we have everything. It's when we become no one that we could be everything that we dreamed of being. Because, it's easier that way.

Sometimes, to get the best we need to lose ourself........

The Other Face of Hope......

A small bird got stuck in my car's wiper this afternoon. It was raining as it was lately and I was on my way to training when it flew straight ahead and I heard a clear thump! Next thing I know, there was a bird stuck in the wiper. I decided to continue driving and rescue the bird once I reached my destination.

It was barely breathing and didn't respond at all when I tucked her (Yes! I decided it's a her) in my attempt of bird's bed using thick sheets of tissue and plastic bag. The others joked that she suffered internal injuries and only counting her minutes to die. When I checked on her after my game, expecting it dead although I so believed she would survive, she was gone. It's only after a few minutes later that I saw her flying merrily on the high ceiling of the hall. What worries me now is that she'll never find her way out. That the only thing she know is the way up without realising there's an exit down below.

So what have I learnt today? I've learnt that no matter how bad an event had hurt you (physically or emotionally), given enough effort and belief, we will manage through the horrid hours and rise up high once again. And for many other times as a matter of fact.

Secondly, no matter how much people condemn you and your beliefs, you are the only one who's capable of failing yourself and abandoning your will.

Thirdly, birds also suffer from hypothermia. All they need to recover is a warm blanket and a loving hand.

And finally, birds has no wipers to clear away the rain and so is advisable for them not to fly in rainy days.

Spread your wings and fly........

Kill Me Softly.....

Passion is a dangerous thing. Almost everything we do is reasoned with passion. It may not be rational. It may not make any sense at all. Sometimes we push ourself over the limit just to satisfy our passion. It knows no boundary, not until it is satisfied.

It's time for you to stop being who I am......

Take Me To Your Side.....

We cannot live without pain no matter how much we despise it, we know that pain is necessary in life. That without pain we'll never understand what pleasure is. Pain comes in different faces, be it a sacrifice or self denial. That we cannot help but to flirt with pain, making it a part of our life, shaping who we really are. No matter how much we deny it, pain is like a drug we cannot live without. Although we claim that nobody wants to suffer, deep within we know that pain is what justifies us in every victories that we managed.

We need to understand it........

Through The Lens: Part Two

My shot at photography.......

P/S Will put up a proper post later once I'm competent enough to write something useful haha *_*

Fate Isn't It?

"......really important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other."

-Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho

Meeting Chance....

"Everything tells me that I am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back where I came from because I didn't have the courage to say yes to life?"

- Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho

Under The Weather

The only time when I feel better is when I was doing sports. My flu has gotten worse and now my head feels heavier than my whole body and a timebomb waiting to explode. To top it all nicely, I'm starting to cough badly. SiGh!

I'm done with Nineteen Minutes. I don't know what it is with Picoult, her novel never end with full closure for her readers. I guess she's a realist that one don't get something without having other thing taken away from them. There we similarities with Nineteen Minutes and The Pact, how the character's emotions are intertwined. Mothers caught between love and the facts. Fathers distracting themselves indulging themselves in works. So what's new?

Will read one of Coelho's after this. Eleven Minutes maybe.

When it's given why having doubts taking it?

A Loose Thread.....

I search in all the things and people that shaped me to be who I am at least a sense of connection. That once, I belong to them and they belong to me. Yet, there is nothing. Empty spaces in me. Nothing familiar only strangers. Faces and things you see, once familiar to you, don't make sense anymore.

It's funny how life works. That people remember a part of your life that you don't anymore. That what's memorable to you may not be the same to others. That the lowest of your life might be the highest of theirs.

No two things are indifferent......

To The Nineteenth Minute....

I changed my mind and decided to read Jodi Picoult's Nineteen Minutes rather than Jemima J. No other reason than that Jemima J looks like a fun read and I wanna save it for later.

The epilogue:
By the time you read this, I hope to be dead.
You can't undo something that's happened; you can't take back a word that's already been said out loud. You'll think about me and wish that you had been able to talk me out of this. You'll try to figure out what would have been the one right thing to say, to do. I guess I should tell you, "Don't blame yourself; this isn't your fault" but that would be a lie. We both know that I didn't get here by myself.
You'll cry at my funeral. You'll say it didn't have to be this way. You will act like everyone expects you to. But will you miss me?
More importantly - will I miss you?
Does either one of us really want to hear the answer to that question?

-Nineteen Minutes

Certain thing is brewing.......

From The Pilgrimage To Miss Jones....

I just finished reading The Pilgrimage. Sorry! But it wasn't as good as the other Paulo Coelho's books I've read. It is more spiritual in a secret society context i.e. Knight Templar and The 'Tradition' stuffs. However, as with his other books, the author never failed to impress me with his understanding for a better life.

I so wanted to start on Jemima J but as it is now past midnight and it's workday tomorrow, I think its best to start reading it fresh in the morning. Or whenever I'm free haha! Besides, I need to recuperate and relax a bit. My mind is still overwhelmed by The Pilgrimage. I don't want to end up thinking that it was Jemima who embarked on a journey along the road to Santiago in search of her sword. Heh!

To dear readers of this blog, be it regulars or accidental gogglers or blog hoppers, feel free to recommend any good books as I'm running out of titles to read. Though I still have 8 books to read. Anyways, I'm not into sci-fi fiction, thriller or murder crime. Favoured genres are those of my reading lists. Historical romance is a big NO NO NO! Thank you.

Sometimes we need to slow down and appreciate what we have around us.......

Reserving Grace.....

We try to live life to the best as we can, avoiding conflicts and embarrassment. Once in a while, we caught ourselves in the crossfire. Should we stay low, take shelter and wait for the situation to ease, or should we take the risk, rise and take the chance to escape?

There never is a right answer......

Walking The Full Stretch....

"Of all the ways we have found to hurt ourselves, the worst has been through love. We are always suffering because of someone who doesn't love us, or someone who has left us, or someone who won't leave us...."

Paulo Coelho, The Pilgrimage

Satisfaction Guaranteed?

Satisfaction is not something solid. It is temporary and it usually leave us with void of wanting more. Satisfaction is a curse in disguise.

Pure satisfaction, I was told, is almost unachievable. Is it in our humble capability to achieve it? Only a few gifted others are lucky enough to truly experience pure satisfaction. As for us, no matter how impossible it may seems, there is no harm in trying.

Show me something sincere........

Through The Lens: Part One

Letting It Be.......

It has been a very long week and it's not even weekend yet. Both physically and mentally exhausting. But worry not, I'm coping it without any major glitches. Heh!

The sudoku craze at the office is getting crazier. We even stayed til 6pm after work and more people are joining the club. They have been giving me enough trouble that I lost my winning streaks now :)

Tomorrow will be equally hectic as I'm fully scheduled the whole day. Hmm, I'm going to hit the sack now. yawn!

Sometimes it's wise to stop trying..........

Test Post

This is a test post. Haha! Test post ani wah. I want to check my connection first before I start on a long post. Hehe watch this space.