Part-aaayyyy People

The handballers had a picnic yesterday, just the gang. So if you're not invited then faham2 lah your not in. Haha! Even then they were some invited people who didn't show up. But you're still in the gang unless if you didn't come tomorrow at training. Btw, did I mention that the picnic was fuckintastic! Yes it was! We started in the afternoon since it was the concluded best time for everyone. Anyway, when I arrived, Tina already had the fire started. Very productive!

You might wonder why the hell am I talking about Tina starting the fire. Well, I love handling the fire in BBQs. I guess I'm a fire-starter? Haha apakan. Seriously, I was manning the grill from start to end, of course there were the others as well. But yang mahal nya is that I didn't want to touch the coal, only because its a tedious job getting my hands dirty then to walk to where the pipe is to wash my hand. So I had Tina to do that. Haha! When else can I bully my student? But she was being a sport.

It was really fun and enjoyable yesterday. I saw few people in their true colour especially Erda. Haha! Daym, she is one funny and crazy girl. Huhu! She made the picnic more lively and riuh. Hahaha! Kan menunggu ayam masak tia ganya keraja nya. Alum lagi si Wanney with her bata butter. Huhuhu! We told her to text Beb to buy some butter for the potatoes, instead she texted Beb to bring some bata as in bricks. Haha! Now how are we going to flavour the potatoes with that? Huhu!

Wanney also made us to label our paper cup, given how easy it is to get it mixed up with others and we didn't have much supply either. Yanti mentioned that it felt like a kid's birthday party where we get everything labelled. Nonetheless, it was a actually a brilliant idea to label all the cups.

Late towards the afternoon, we had a mini putting tournament but we didn't get to finish the game. Initially it was just me and Hj Rudy playing then Jimmy, Tina, Jess and Beb joined in. Hehe! So we shall continue it at the driving range eh. We will be having the handball friendly match this sunday so will try to schedule the golf thing the next sunday. Anyway, its monday so I better get back to work. Schmuck!!!

In the definite of time.................

Second Time Lucky

MRS Night, 7th April 2007: Lucky draw number 065. Given in the invitation itself. Won B-Mobile Prepaid line.

CIPTA Appreciation Night, 27th April 2007: Lucky draw number 065. Obtained it from the number bowl, by accident! Won a rice cooker...but a prize nonetheless ;)

Coincidence, pure luck or fate?

New Addition

Its been a busy week so far. I have the interview thing to do, as well as the teaching load with the consultancy students. On top of that, I have another blog added into my hand. Its the not so-official brunei handball blog which you can find here. The rest of the information regarding that blog can be found there. I've also link the website so you can easily surf it through here.

Its been difficult juggling my blogging skills with two blogs as the idea of both blog are very different which makes me kinda run out of ideas when it comes to writing this blog. Since when jua ku banyak idea. But hey! Nonetheless, its been fun so far.

On a good note, I'm going to have my last class with the consultancy students today late in the morning. Then I'm left with the other class which I'm only taking for two weeks. So its all guuuuuudddd!! Can't wait for the semester to be over. Its been very very long!!!

What The .........!!!

Amazing!! Boleh lagi?? I was asked a personal question by a prospective student that I interviewed yesterday. At the end of the session we usually ask them if they have any questions for us regarding the course and he went *shy a bit* and said its personal can I? My colleague said go ahead cos we thought its personal to him NOT us!! But hey!!! We couldn't stop laughing when he left the room but yeah...all in a day work huh!!

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Taking a short break now from the interview. One of the 2.45 slots students didn't come so the next slot is at 3.45 which is in 20 minutes. The students this afternoon came from different academic background as compared to yesterday. But its easier to interview this technical students because they have more working experience and they know what the course is all about. The only drawback is that they are weak academically. Heh!!

Shut!!! Need to prepare tomorrow's lecture slide. Darn!! Oh well, will do it tonight after handball. I believe I can do it. Its been a long day.

Different faces..............

Taking Pause....

I've been feeling unsettled since a month ago. Its like my life is forever revving on the fast lane. It made me weary. At the same time, it made me oblivious. I had no time to appreciate things that are more significant to me but otherwise.

I felt there's just so much to do yet so little time. I do multi things at the same time that I lost judgement of what's important and what's not. I was seeking quantity but not quality all this time. Ultimately, it feels like I'm slacking and ended up with little usefulness. How is that even possible? I'm clueless.

I'm going to take it slow now. Embrace what the moment has to offer rather than just consuming everything in like there's no tomorrow. Like a blood thirst vampire awaken from its centuries-long slumber draining every drops of blood off its victim. I was that vampire. I need to feel like a human.

I'm just gonna let everything falls into places. Going with the flow is good. Don't force it. Yeah! Just sit back and live in the moment. Slow it down, take a pause.

Hit the button now................

A Little Too Much....

The flu takes longer to pass, given all the pre-flu symptoms, I'm not surprise why. The coughing is thankfully gone, ease the burden a bit. Since a couple of days ago, I've exhausted 3 big boxes of tissue and there's no showing of slowing down. Haven't been to the gymin recent weeks and my membership is expiring soon. Humph!!

Don't feel fit enough to play handball this afternoon so will only come and watch. Buttttt....I might be tempted to play so we'll see. Its good to sweat off the toxin off the body. Haha

Still figuring it out...............

Man Down.....

My eyes look pretty when I'm sick. Haha! Sick eyes are pretty ;p I'm trying to find the positive beneath all these mucus and ugliest of being sick. The cough is getting really bad + having a little chest pain. Can't be bothered to go to the Clinic and ask for mc. Anyone who has been to one of those government clinic will understand why.

I need to close my eyes........

Nice To Meet You Finally....

I'm gonna be sick! This is for real. My nose has been stuffy since a week ago and only nowI started coughing. So the damam-ing process has started. God knows..maybe I'll be getting sick, the real thing, next week. Since the process of me getting sick is so the very slow. Seriously..its coming!

A friend was talking about this blog last night. She was telling me that she read this one blog after googling for 'Kirana FC Brunei'. So becerita tah ia how the blogger also wrote about handball and stuffs. She confidently said that the blogger was Inamoto. Yes babe, you! I don't know how she came to that conclusion. Anyway, she even talked about the poems and how colourful the posts were. Haha! I had my moment. All this time she was talking about the site, I was smiling. I mean what else could I do? Nda kan serious right.

Anyway, my coughing is getting worse. Raincheck gym. Hello bed!!

Just a spoonful of sugar...........

Just Popping In...

Funny how you can learn so much just by reading. I learn new things each day. The weather looks lovely outside. Think its gonna rain. Bless....

Uncertainty awaits......

Erection of the Steam Turbine

I just read the above from a textbook. Made me smile. At least shadowed by utter madness, something managed to make me smile. Not that I'm a pervert but ........ can't be bothered explaining. Hence, the short post.

I'll talk when I feel to. At the moment, I have other priority.

There's something better to do.........

Raaa-iiight.....

Its normal for a girl to act a little bimbo-ish no matter how intelligent she is. But to find a man to act so?? And we are talking about manly man here, physically manly but intrinsic wise urmm...no comment! Huhuhu. Only one person knows what I'm talking about here *winks*

Its good to reminisce over your past once in a while to get you earthbound in a way. Reminds you of who you used to be..or who you really are.

Hit the rewind button now.......

Never Give Up...

Couldn't sleep early again last night, I think I might get sick. My nose was stuffed and my chest hurt. Had to drag myself out of bed to get some vitamin and ointment. Did help and I was in dreamland in minutes. Feel much better today, took some pills and 100+ to avoid getting more sick. Yes mum always give us 100+ when we are sick, it does help alot with the body temperature and dehydration.

Anyway, no surprise if I tell you that I'm preparing the lecture notes still. I'm still confused with this stuffs cos there can be two side of the topic that I'm now teaching. The calculation and theoretical side which is my specialty (esehman!!) and the other is the superficial part. Like in the syllabus it says Superheaters. So do I explain why we need superheaters and continue on to its importance in the plant, draw the schematic diagram, plot the cycle, compare with the ideal cycle and do the calculation OR do I just need to explain what it is and how it works which is much simpler, but its not really my fave area of expertise. And the first is too complicated to cover in a month let alone a week. So I guess its the latter one to proceed with then again...what kind of question can I give the students for the tutorials??? Maybe I'll just combine a bit of both yeah?? Haha! Who says teaching was easy? Allow me to slap you.

Its only 2.30 and I'm already grumpy. I'm going straight for handball practice after work. We most probably will be having a friendly match with the KB team at the end of this month. I've been asked to select players for the team but it hard now that fewer and fewer people are coming. What happen ah? Maybe they don't enjoy handball as much as the regulars do. Mcm org becinta bah, like no time to call or message or anything cos they are busy. Thats just bullshit. Cos even though how busy one is, they'll always have time for their loved ones. So the morale is when a guy say all those things to you it means that he's not into you that bad. Haha! Off topic.

The place where we had our lunch today played Boyzone songs so it is now currently in my playlist. Haha! I have the right to be what it is I'm being at the moment. Yes! Stephen Gately sings through his nose but 15 year old me said his voice is heaven. Haha! Chipmunks!! I see (hear) the truth now....

Know now who we are, know not what we may be......

Monday Daze

Next time, remind me not to sleep late if I need to do academic things the next morning!! Yawn!! Well, its not really entirely my fault as I was kept wide awake in the middle of the night by the fact that I'm gonna be doomed with the lecturing stuffs. So excuse me if all I can think of at the moment are dreams and roses. But yeah, just remind me next time not to.

Amazingly, I managed to read through few notes which I saved yesterday. The path is a bit clearer now though the rest of the journey is still hazy. Worse comes to worse I'll have to ask my colleague who is currently on leave to come around and help. Cos I might end up teaching things that are unnecessary. I think this is one of the disadvantages when fresh graduates are dragged into the teaching profession without having them experience the real working world. There's no practicality and experience to supplement the theories. And its very frustrating given that this field I'm at, industrial experiences are very very important.

Last week, few of us went to Lumut to discuss few stuffs with the people there and I brought up the issue of lecturers not having industrial experience and I was glad to hear the Asst. mentioned that the matter has been looked into. Only that we need to take into consideration of the time period that is convenient to both parties. Its a pity really given that our department particularly has a very good relationship with BLNG so we should take this opportunity to our benefit. Besides its gonna do good for both parties so why not right. Hmmm.....

If I had a choice........

An Afternoon Away from Madness......

Currently at CoffeeBean Bandar with an old friend from the past, present and future i.e. Norazz. Huhu!! She's keeping me company for today while I'm surfing for useful useful information on the Net. Its for my next lecture and boy! can it be any more harder to find one. I almost feel sick thinking the fact that I'm running out of luck for a decent information. You know its like sitting for the finals without knowing anything. Luckily I've stumbled this website which is quite informative so I'm saving everything into my files and will print it in the office tomorrow. The website has gone bonkers at the moments so while waiting for it to load its a perfect time to blog. Hopefully I'll have enough time to finish everything before Wednesday. Oh my!! I need a break desperately.

Its been a long time since I've spent time with Norazz alone and its nice to have a decent heart to heart conversation with this friend of mine. Huhu!! Cos I can just be myself with her since she practically knows everything about yours truly. Yes! that includes secrets. Raw and hot ones!! Haha! Anyway, I'm so glad we are still friends since God knows when. And it amazing and I'm truly thankful to find that she's still the same old person I know back then. Awww! This can be a heartfelt moment..can you feel your tears coming right out? You do? Yawah? What a softie!!

But seriously, she understand and deals well with my insensitivity most of the time which is good cos I don't have to worry if I've offended her or anything cos she knows me well. Well, I think she does know me well. So everything I do she knows the reason why. Hehe apakan.

Sometimes you just need a breather.......

Rainy Days

I'm losing it. I'm losing grip of my sense of being....

Its diffcult to be around people being judgemental of you when they can't even judge themselves.....

Flowing....

Maybe I made a mistake. Maybe I was wrong. Well its too late to turn and head back now....for I'll just hope. Hope for something better. Or even for a second chance.

Had my first consultancy lecture this morning. The students are way much better than I last taught them. Was kinda fun teaching them I think in a way I have to go with their flow, you know try to blend it in with them, tell jokes that they'll laugh to rather than sharing the lame one which kinda work tadi.

Anyways, now thats I've got that part certain, I have to turn my attention to this project which I'm handling for the Energy Week. I'll talk to the technicians on Monday once I'm over this hectic week. Darn!! should have keep my hands still in the first place. Nonetheless I'm thankful that I've been given this great opportunity to further deveop my career prospects. Hopefully it'll bring some meaning into my dull career life.

What happen when you put two bored and tired adults together on a Thursday afternoon?
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[15:33] On The Outside....: if i dont go now i will not go anytime soon
[15:33] On The Outside....: u know its the flow
[15:33] On The Outside....: everything is about flow hehe
[15:33] N70: hahaha yeah d flow again
[15:34] On The Outside....: banar serious
[15:34] On The Outside....: hahaha
[15:34] N70: hehe awu dih
[15:34] N70: go with da flow
[15:34] N70: cos it'll get u flowing
[15:34] On The Outside....: flowing is good
[15:35] On The Outside....: at least im not stuck
[15:35] N70: hehe
[15:35] N70: yeah yeah
[15:35] On The Outside....: its true
[15:35] On The Outside....: everything is about flow
[15:35] On The Outside....: u stop the flow everything changes
[15:35] On The Outside....: sometimes u have to start all over again
[15:35] N70: hahahaha
[15:36] On The Outside....: and sometimes ur left drifting

Tell me it is going to be alright..............

Bitter

I find it difficult to find a new perspective of life. It is... Its hard to be inspired. Its hard to be motivated. Not with little effort. I have another workload this afternoon but I'm not gonna do it today..maybe tomorrow or the day after or maybe never. SiGh!!

Chatting to Dibs at the moment. God I miss that girl! She's my impromptu buddy..the last minute hotline. Haha! the one unbounded by anything so to lose such friend though temporarily is quite a blow cos it alters my social life almost significantly. Hehe! Though we now learnt to develop an imaginary thing that shall remain unsaid for now.

Hanging by the moment...............