Back Again..

MinX is arriving today! Yeahaaa! Its been ages and I can't wait to see her. I'm gonna be enjoying my three days weekend as well though I still have a lot to do with the lecture preparation but somehow I'm have a feeling its under control. Weird! Feeling saja tu not the actual thing yet. Huhu!!

I've narrowed down my choices of laptop to buy and I'm torn between Dell and HP. Viao is a no no unfortunately as its very the expensive unless if insanity were to overwhelm me then maybe. Haha! I managed to convince the acting head to let me use the department's laptop for the weekend. Yeahhhaaaaaa!! Party ni party! Apakan! But I need to take it from my colleague who is not here yet. Hopefully he'll come soon as I'm planning to leave work early today. Wohoooo!!

A big shout out to the trio in Brisbane especially Inamoto. Didn't get much opportunity to talk to you as much as the other two but I love you nonetheless. I assumed you hard working girls are busy with your assignments and sleeping at odd hours. Who eats chilli she feels hot hot one :p Ayte I should get back to my work.

Here's to the night..........

Stuffed..

Its been one hell of a very tight week....and its only wednesday but I'm feeling the strain already. New things keep popping up and I'm running out of time. There's so many fucking things to do and money to spend as well. Hopefully, the break will bring out some sort of relief though I doubt it but hey one can only hope.

I know I've been talking about work lately but seriously its so bad!!! There's academic stuffs to do, then the departmental stuffs, then the administration, and then the donkey jobs. And then add the consultancy stuffs I have to do. On top of that, there's this big project that I'm gonna handle. Seriously!! I'm no superwoman! Ca kamu imagine? These things are endless with new stuff popping out almost every single day....or week. But yeah!!

Take this madness away from me.........

Little Bit to the Left..

I'm feeling a little off-centered today. I think I'm gonna be sick soon. Hehe tau lagi tu! My temperature is boiling, I'm sweating like a marathon runner in an air-conditioned room. My head feels heavier than a sack of scented rice. I've been sitting in front of the computer the whole day typing away my lecture notes. I managed 3 pages since this morning which is quite productive given the condition I am in at the moment. So might continue to do it tommorrow when I'm all energize and fresh. I'm too tired to even think about the smallest thing now.....

Actually, a cold ice blended coffee would be nice. Darn!! Si Dibs ni punya angkara!! She shouldn't have mention coffee when I'm feeling like this. Mikin tia beasuh damam/malas ku ani. Heeeee!! Seriously!! I'm craving for one now. Mr Brown will not do.

My arm feels better now. I think I might have over-twist the shoulder joint during handball and sprained some muscles along. There were cracking sounds when I rotated my arm yesterday but there were none today except for once this morning. Almost everyone have told me to take a break from sports but heck no!! U must be kidding!!

Give me the strength to carry on.......

A Reaction..

My post 'Talk About...' has caused a friend to react with a drastic measure. Huhu! Terasa chia pulang! Well, I must say she falls accidentally to my trap. I was actually talking about someone else but I guess she did have some good news to share which I already knew jua but you know, I totally understand her situation of not telling just yet cos you know its not a certain thing as yet. So I must be talking about someone else then? Who could it be?

Oh btw, thanks for sharing the great news Asmah Squidy! I can't believe time flies so fast. Seems like it was only yesterday that I first saw you in the football pitch in UBD, dressed like a total stranger to the football scene. But I guess you already knew that you impressed me that day with your aggressiveness. And seems like I did suffer from it quite a number of times. Huhuhu!!!

It is heartbreaking to know that those past are beyond us, its like a reality slap that those great days are never gonna happen again. Now that your are ready for your next step up in life I'm feeling like I'm gonna lose a friend. Not lose in the actual sense but you know what I mean. Eh! You do know what I mean right?? Haha but then again you are Asmah, thats not possible. Love you babe.

This is it.......

One Down...

Alhamdulillah CIPTA is over! I can now focus on my academic responsibilities. This consultancy lecture thing is not easy, on top of that i have another lecture to handle after the holidays. I've been browsing through few articles for my notes and there's so much to think about. Should I give a detail lecture or not? Details should be good but don't think the students will agree with me on that. Heh! But its gonna be a difficult subject to understand so I'll most probably start the lecture slow and detailed. Take it easy mate! Take it easy!!

Weekend is here again. Thank you!!

I don't know how to go back.....

Crazy Days

Oh my God! Oh my God!! I'm running out of time!!!! *Panics* I have two weeks left before my consultancy lecture and I haven't prepare anything yet. Oouuiiiii! Someone is in BIG trouble.

It feels nice to start the day catching up with a friend though walaupun melalui ruang chat MSN ini as she usually puts it. Makes me forget all the trouble and stupidity around me. Talk about being irresponsible!! I have one story but I will not share it here. How I wish MinX's around. Everything is just driving me crazy nowadays. Seriously man!! Seriously!!! These people at work, not my friends and direct colleagues, are just fucking pissing me off. Banar!! I feel like slapping them with a large trout. Hahaha! Mcm irc saja bunyi nya. But yeah! I was extra-ordinarily calm this morning though there was a bit of rage going on deep inside. It was silly matters made difficult by idiotic people but hey I can stop them from being stupid. So? What else can I do? Shoot em'? Yes please!

Hans had a very interesting note on her blog. It says prolonged use of positive thinking may create a permanent positive attitude. Should try that. How to start? She didn't exactly say. So a little help here please. Can I just fake the positive attitude with prolonged use of positive words??

Work is excellently crap!
At least I'm trying..........

Talk About.....

Ohh its one of those times! When I feel so clueless and meaningless. Heh! Work is getting so mundane. Like the only thing that is new is there's more and more silly tasks to do each passing day. I need to get out of this place. I'm stuck in stagnation.

What do you do if your friend doesn't share their good news with you? There can be a number of reasons, that I can think of:
One: Maybe they want surprise you!
Two: Maybe its not time to share yet
Three: You are insignificant!
Four: You are very insignificant!!!
Five: Who are you again?

Oh since chocolate fudge is not around and already I've got so many things to talk about, I decided to jot down all those relevant topics on post-its and share it with her when she gets back which is not soon. So that I will not forget when she comes back cos approx. a couple of weeks is a very long period for a very forgetful person like me. Good thing I still have Tee to talk to and she agreed that I should put them on post-its as reference. Heh! Engineers are very practical!

Thank goodness for handball later. Need to ease my mind and forget about these work craps then again there's still another day. Another day to face those craps. SiGh!! Why couldn't I be inspired?

The world works in the most ironic way.....

Unstamped Letter Part: Uno

Dear Fudge,

We can never know to what extend one can miss another until one is actually missing another. In this case, a day feels like forever. And you only flew off yesterday. So thats like forever already. And nobody lives forever so technically forever is not possible for humans like us. So you have to come back before I explode or whatever forever do to humans. But then you can't come back just because I ask you to besides you got to do the thing you got to do. So don't worry about me I will be fine. (PLEASE!! WORRY WORRY ABOUT ME!!) No seriously, don't. (YES!! SERIOUSLY!! PLEASE Do!!) Haha nyeah don't! I'm gonna be fine. Except that if you were here I would probably tell you that office ku benyamuk. Tehheeeee! Cemana boleh? I don't know. Hmm plants baru ku ani kali. Uhuks uhuks.

Yours Truly,
Mopiko :p

Closing In....

I feel so uninspired! Oh its saturday! Thank God for weekends. This week I have been spending a little time writing a doa, more like tons of appeal. Reason behind it should remained unsaid. Haha! Anyhow, it got me into thinking, first of all, makbul kah tu doa atu? Even if you go to the holy land and devote urself to God when in reality you are not a devoted muslim yourself. Its like I've got this so many requests to God but then when I really think about it, mcm who am I really for it to be fulfilled because there are so many better person than me who deserves their wish to be realised. Seriously? But the holy land is a magical place and Allah Subahan'allah Taala is very forgiving and loving of his creations so I hope for the best :)

I also have been feeling kinda weird these past few days, as if there's someone watching me all the time. Only a few friends know that I have experienced a number of weird and errmm 'supernatural' stuffs, mainly back in my uni days. And I feel like all those are coming back though not exactly in the same manner. But...seriously! I know its hard to understand and harder to believe but there's no good reasoning for making this up..if I am making this things up which I'm not. *Heh!* Besides this things it happens in sequence you know so I feel like I'm back to experiencing similar things and I don't have a clue to why. So the first recent occurrence was the night of the passing of a friend. Won't say what exactly cos its too complicated to write hehe! Anyway, the last weird occurrence was last night when well.....you ready for this?? I felt a warmth breath blown on my forehead. I was alone in my room on my side, lights off, almost doozed off to sleep and suddenly.....Hehe! Yup! There you go. Go figure!!

Uuuuhhhhh!! Its almost 12!! Yes!! I love saturdays!!

Tell me why and I'll tell you how.......................

To A Friend...Gone

The Finish Line

The earth is warm next to my ear
Insects noise is all that I hear
A magic trick makes the world disappear
The skies are dark, they're dark but they're clear

A distant motorcade and suddenly there's joy
The snow and tickertape blurs all my senses numb
It's like the finish line where everything just ends
The crack of radios seems close enough to touch

Cold water, cleaning my wounds
A side parade, with a single balloon
I'm done with this, I'm counting to ten
Blue as seas, running to them I feel like

I am watching everything from space
And in a minute I hear my name and I wake
I think the finish line's a good place we could start
Take a deep breath, take in all that you could want

Lyrics by Snow Patrol


I know this is long overdue, nonetheless.....May you rest in peace. I don't think you ever knew how much you touched our life with your sincerity and kindness. Thank you for everything you did for us. Al-Fatihah

Losing Grip

Its getting more and more insane each day. Fucken darn! I HATE!! HATE!! donkey jobs. Its making me feel so senseless, purposeless and unworthy......................

One Week Ago

Hahaha! Atu ya! My last post was ages ago. God! Was really really caught up with work. Erkkks!! So my liaison task is no more now, and I'm back to my desk preparing things, in advance, for my lectures which is in a month. It sounds like a long time but trust me its not!! I have another consultancy lectures next month as well and the students are quite a challenge. I taught the same batch last year and education are the last things on their mind and they are very passive as well. So I'm still trying to figure out the best way of conducting my lessons. Shmuck!!

Saw four of my chinese ex-classmates at the gym on wednesday. Its nice to catch people from your past and to discover they are almost still the same makes it more exciting. I know I'll be looking more of them after this which is good. Had a little talk with them, recapping what we have been up to all this years. Funny when we were back at high school we made a pack that we'd go to Empire on New Year's Eve 2005 for our reunion. Don't think anyone went although Won Wern claimed she did come. Heh! Macam sitaie!

I still enjoy the girls' company as much as I did back then. Our class rocks!!! Back then at the beginning of the 'O' level years, there were equal number of malay, chinese and indian (and associated race) population and mingling with the different race was the last thing on our mind. Our teachers did advised us endlessly to enjoy the diversity of culture and be friends. Not that we don't want to mix with them but I think we were shy at the beginning. Time passes by and we got along well, very well and very very well. In couple of months time we became unstoppable. If before the teachers complaint of our socialising capabilities now there are really complaining of our socialising capabilities, if you know what I mean.

Anyway, its lunch time. Time for gyming. Ahhhh!! Bless!!

Its not who you are underneath, its what you do that defines you.

Madness

I'm sleepy, I'm tired and I'm lost!! Don't actually know what to write about. I'm just enjoying my bangang phase at the moment cos after days of continuous hell, it feels good to be incompetent once in a while.

Fuck!! WHY WHY!!!! Just as I was about to enjoy my moment, trouble comes knocking on my locked door. Except a hiatus from me.

Driven to pure insanity..............