Wide Awake....

Here I am, 3am in the morning, eyes wide open. I kept on twisting and turning, hoping that I'd fall into slumber. I failed to find dreamland. I'm not thinking of anything in particular just random thoughts and I don't understand why cos none of these thoughts are valid enough to keep me up. More accurately, it's because I can't sleep that I started to think. It's getting really late and I need to wake up early in the morning. SiGh! To make my insomnia worse, I miss Aaqil so much. I must see him tomorrow!

Dream while you still can.......

Profound Happiness

We are happy when for everything inside us there is a corresponding something outside us.

Not In My Hand...

I'm waiting for the final words. Though it's not certain yet. It's not in my hand anymore. Oh well, I've been hoping for a break, to go away and what have I got now?

It'll be a good thing......

One Month Aaqil

The adorable one hits the one month mark yesterday. Happy one month birthday Muhd Aaqil Harith. Much Love from us all.

All Set Up.....

I was so restless last night, I couldn't sleep. It was only around 3am that I forced myself to sleep. There's so many things on my head and I was trying to rationalise them. Their pros and cons, decisions aren't easy to make.. Then again, it may not be up to me to decide. For one thing, it seems to be all set up. Don't have much choice, do I? It seems like the coming things are nicely set up for me. Lots of great things to look forward for. But I couldn't help myself to feel agitated with whether I'm capable of being a part of it. I know I am but why are all this doubts haunting me.

They say be careful with what you wish for, cos you might just get it all.

If I go, what are my chances to leave?

Needing Space.....

There's so much to take, so many to think of for the moment. Fortunately, I don't have to deal with it just yet. Nothing major but not insignificant either.

Everywhere I go I think of you.......

Pushing Fate.....

We both need a chance to know each other. A chance to find out that maybe we are meant to end up together. A chance that seems inexistence for the moment. I'll rather wait.

All that you do.....

Trouble No More....

That's sorted then. Managed to do what's right. What matters more is that it feels right as well. I feel good with myself.

Makes me wonder how you remember.....

Take A Left.....

Life can take unexpected turns both the better or for the worse. Sometimes we can't control the situations and the people. But isn't it great when people just make it easy for you even though they intended the opposite? Them and their predictability. Thoughtless and stupid really.

Always on the right......

Booooo......

Dear Aunty dearest,

My wawa told me that you've been asking for my piccies *blushes* I didn't know I'm such a hot stuff at the moment. Anyway, you can find more of my pics on my photoblog. Just find my link on the right side below. I attached a photo of me so you'll not be shocked by how adorable and handsome I am. Can't wait to meet you.

Hugs,

Aaqil

PS/ Can you kick the kangaroo out of these people disturbing my beauty sleep? Thanx

Beyond Inhuman.....

It recently come to my knowledge of the extremely disturbing crime of a man called Josef Fritzl. He locked his own daughter, Elisabeth, in the cellar of his house, unknowing to anybody even his wife, for 24 years as his sex slave. He fathered 7 children with Elisabeth. For 24 years, Elisabeth was held captive, with three children never been outside ever in their whole life. Three others were raised by Josef in a normal upbringing, while one died during childbirth and was incirnerated in the household furnace. For more, go google it.

Anyway, what this man did is just beyond words. It's very very sick indeed. I just wanna share it with you guys cos I'm sure not many is aware of this. I only knew about it when a friend mentioned it saturday morning. Tell me what you think......

Among the bitches......

Riding The Waves....

I have the feeling that I'm going to be Murphied (Murphy Law-ed) again. I can sense it. I knew it'll not be smooth sailing. There'll be issues to tackle. I definitely think too much. But I can't help it. It's hard to be positive when everyone else wants to bring you down. SiGh!

On the verge of ending up with nothing........

The Two First....

Aaqil making himself comfortable, Winnie the Pooh style hahaha

Sorted with Agitation.....

So it has been decided then. Thanx babe for sorting out what needs to be done. You know who you are. Hahaha I hope there'll be no complication after this. Sometimes I just think too much, wasting so much time on the situations and circumstances, that I forgot what's need to be done.

She found home......

Trouble Maker....

I always seems to get in trouble with my decisions. Always! How do I know what to decide? Could it be that I underestimated myself? That I have little faith in me? If that is the case then I need to work on it immediately. Is it possible to? Oh God! There I go again......

I did it again.......

If Only I Know How.....

There's so much to see, in this world, the circus of humanity. Loyalty, deceits, truth, lies, pretends, denials, love and hate. All these don't matter as long as we are true to ourselves.

I'd drown if I try any harder.......

Through The Lens: Hockey Match Aust Guildford College vs. Brunei Ladies

Jobless Smelly Feets

The World We Live In

The World We Live In

In a world
Where we smoke to feel free
Where we drink to forget what we did
Where blaming others for our mistakes is the normality
And raping 9-year-old girls is the reality
We still manage to be happy.

In a world
Where if you have 1 you want 10
Where if you were born girl you want to be a man
Where moms slit their babies’ throats
And the real values are fading behind banknotes
We still consider ourselves humans.

In a world
Where if you were healthy you should be grateful
Where having a family should mean being lucky
Where dreaming should be consider as the biggest gift
And every breath should be enjoyed for what it gives
We shouldn’t be complaining,
but living.

J.Apo.B.

The poem was written by Jacopo, a blogger I recently became acquainted to. I very much like it because it's very raw and honest though some might percieve it as dark, it's time to come face to face with the real world now.

Jacopo's Inspiration:
Here I am, so....I wrote "The World We Live In" on a friday night here in San Francisco. It had been a long time that I had in mind the first 3 lines (In a world Where we smoke to feel free Where we drink to forget what we did) when on that friday I was randomly thinking, daydreaming, as often happens to me and I start thinking about our world, with all our beautiful and horrible things. Especially dreams, I'm a dreamer, therefore I consider dreaming "as the biggest gift". On the same day, my roommate was shooting his movie project about the people, the human being, and a couple of hours before I had watched an interview to Johnny Depp who talked about breathing, how we forgot how valuable breathing is. So, it was a mix, a set of thoughts lived in the same day that led me to write this poem.

PS/ Apo, I agree with the breathing part. More often we take things for granted. We are too obsess with the bigger picture that we forgot to look closer at each pieces of the puzzle.

The Enemy

"Because I had goodwill for all, I thought all were my friends, and then I learned of treachery, that some preferred my end. A glorious day, the one I learned the meaning of the word. It's good to know my enemies, though their reasons are absurd"

Vanna Bonta